Wednesday, November 23, 2016

365 Days, 365 Mistakes

This will be my first post while I am in Japan being in a student exchange programme. I'm having a lot of fun here, although I kinda miss my life in university back in Malaysia. I miss being able to talk and be crazy with some of my bunch of friends. I do talk and be crazy with my newly found friends here too, but it is a different kind of feeling. I guess human are just shitty all the time, they always want something different when the best has already been presented right in front of their eyes. 

It has been a little bit more than two months now in Osaka. Starting to get used to people here. Actually grew fond of a few people that I find comfort with. People that know me should know that I am a slow goer when it comes to people. I don't get attached to people real quick. But when I do, I feel more comfortable talking and making jokes with them. Well but again, not everyone would understand my jokes.

I am very bad in Japanese. I am not sure why I didn't want to speak more often with people in Japanese. Maybe it is that look that I get when I try very hard to understand what they are talking but I tend to look like a super retard deciphering their message. Maybe it is my own ego, stopping myself from looking like a fool when trying to learn a new language. Ugh. 

Sometimes I give up entirely and just say わからない, which means I don't understand, hoping that they would then speak English with me. It sucks. However, my reading and writing are slightly better than my speaking ability. But that wouldn't help me to commute my way in Japan effectively. Which sucks again. 

Seeing and knowing so many people here, all across the world made me feel that there is so much to the world than the people I know my entire life. There are so much of kindness and love that I don't see displayed before. There are so many cultures and contexts that I do not understand but am trying to. It is constantly a trial and error with some of my friends here. Sometimes I get what they mean, some other times I don't. But I do try my best to get along.

While I am still here in Japan, I hope to give my very best to the people here and add value to their life as well. It is important to leave a deep, lasting memory for them as those are the priceless valuables. The drinking parties that we have, the parties RA organized, the movies we watched, the skating crews, the curry nights and studying nights. It all means a lot to me and I hope that I will remember them forever. 

I do sincerely hope that I will continue to enjoy and appreciate every second I have left here and with my friends. Maybe the title don't fit the overall context of this blog, but it doesn't matter because it is what I want to say. That we make mistakes every day but it is okay. Probably till the day we die that we will still continue to make mistakes.